A little tale of a little Princess who grew up being able to slay her own dragons

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Dear Readers,

Its going to be my bed time soon and in movies whenever its bed time the little girl will be read by her father/mother a bed time story and so this is a tiny bit of bed time story I probably will read to my child if I have them someday, and I promise it has a moral of the story in it, heregoes..

In a land far far away there live a Princess who live in a very beautiful castle with a lot of servants, she is blessed with a pure white skin like Snow White, her mother, always dress her up accordingly to her status, she never once in her life have to work hard for anything because whatever she wants it is acquirable easily, and she grew up to be one of the prettiest girl in the land. But due to her nature of having everything easily and because she is always surrounded by a lot of servants she have a lot of trouble in blending in with other Royalties children, in short its hard for her to make friends.

Time passes by and she grew even more beautiful with a body that rock, and theres a few prince’s that take notice of her and finally she found herself “seen” and  theres people that took interest in her, she find her new found fame is pleasant, she finally make friends, have her a first boyfriend and all. Little does she know that those attention she receive is merely a vague dream, they only there for her because of her beauty and her title that come along with her, when her kingdom is shook with a sudden death of her Grand Father the King her entire fortune vanish because her Father does not know how to handle their family assets. She is then left only with her beauty, she then soon realize she began to binge eating due to her accumulated stress, slowly but surely the people around her began to go their own way, the Prince’s attention become less and less pleasant to have.

The Princess is indeed still blessed, she got a scholarship to attend one of the best university and pursue a degree, there she taste the bittersweet and tingling feeling of acquiring a knowledge, she became ambitious to gather all the knowledge the world has to offer, she does not care about her appearance her glorious beauty has vanish, however she attain something even more fruitful to have; KNOWLEDGE! She didn’t mind not being the most beautiful lady in the room anymore, she gain attention not because of her physical appearance, her bright mind is eccentric, she sees the world in a different light as a result of having 2 world in the palm of her hands. She love to talk about what is important, she is now have a beautiful mind and she loves that, because the people that surround her is not the vague, back stabbing, ugly at heart people, she feels proud of herself because what she have is things that she works hard with blood, tears and sweat herself, not merely something given to her anymore.

She began to love hard work, she appreciate life more and she lives happily with people who love her for who she is and proud of her as much as she is proud of herself, and thus my dear reader I just want to tell each and everyone of you that no matter what happens in life, you have to always believe that if one door closes, the other will open, if theres no door opens just got in from the window! And remember to value yourself more, sometimes you more than what meets the eye! More importantly, if you were met with problems just remember that God is testing you to make you stronger because God wants you to move ahead and be the best version of yourself that you are meant to be!

With Love,

Indira Musiawan

Revelation 

Dear readers,

Recently, i feel like in my 21 years of life although i have visit many places, meet many people and experience so many things but all of it is not enough! I think its just the greed inside of me, like some people have greed for money or power but for me its experience.. 
I feel like i want to experience many wonderful thing as I realise that we as a fragile human being only live once! And the way we will live our life’s depends on how we ourselves want it to be! 

Growing up as I am always hated by so many people I feel like others judgement and others opinion is whats important BUT as I sit here on a 5 hour bus ride to Paris, I realise that its not true! 

True that in living this life there are other people beside ourselves and in the Netherlands law it is called the ‘neighbour principle’ BUT the most important, most fulfilling thing in this life is YOUR own happiness! 

Then i began to question myself; am I so far happy? Am I by doing what others expect of me which is basically for me to fail in everything that I do is correct? Because you see, I realise that despite all of this people hating me, stabbing me behind my back while putting on a smile to me, looking down on me etc etc etc somehow I have manage to break all of that bad expectation with just 1 thing in my mind which is “I just want to be happy”, since I am not the type of student who excels in every subjects they thought for sure I will just end up being a housewife but instead I am now pursuing my studies to the Netherlands, some people thought for sure that my dreams is unachievable and all I do is talk big but looking back I have achieve so much; MUN Qatar, accepted and be a part of many international organisations, making connections between Trisakti-Erasmus, teach a cooking class in Prasmul and more (I feel like im showing off if i say more hehe).. Others hate me and doesn’t even want to spoke to me but over the years they approach me to help them with something, so clearly I am myself have something they need.. So really, who am I kidding? Others opinion is baseless! Unworthy to be heard of! I know they hate me because they have a reason like im annoying etc, but heck now I am the one who is living my dream! So yeah just like Taylor Swift says “Haters gonna hate” and let them be, kill them with success! Keep working hard my dear readers, don’t mind others, just do your own thing and make you yes YOU yourself happy.. 

With Love,

Indira Musiawan

(PS: This post is made last year on my notes and I just thought it would be a pity if I dont post it here, so here’s to you.. Me) 

Indira V. The Netherlands Pt. 1

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Dear Readers,

As some of you may know, I am currently studying in Rotterdam, the Netherlands, as an exchange student, I am indeed the first person to go on an exchange programme from my home university (Trisakti University). Today I want to tell you a story on how and why I am here.

First of all, it all started last year when I participate on an event called Holland International Week, in that event I have to do a presentation about Indonesia in 2 University; Amsterdam University and Erasmus University Rotterdam. When I was in the Erasmus University Rotterdam turn out they have an ongoing project with Trisakti University (my home university) and it has been on hold since 2001, knowing what a great opportunity it would be I grab the chance right away and told the International Office that I would be more than glad to continue the project as to made it possible for students from both university to come as an exchange student. And so my battle begin; from talking to the Dean in my home university and establishing contact for both university. To cut things short everything proceed smoothly and on August 2014 I am expected to arrive and attend classes in Erasmus University Rotterdam (EUR) starting September 2014.

My 1st struggle start on the very much anticipated day; the departure day! Strange things happened already from the start, I buy a Garuda Airlines ticket in the Garuda Airlines booth and they told me on the day that I chose they don’t have any flight, but they have a flight operated by Etihad Airways, and I was like “yeah ok no problem, as long as I arrive safely in the destination” so I buy a Garuda ticket but operated by Etihad. On the night that I suppose to depart, with my friends and family already in the airport accompanying me, the flight is delayed until morning, so I have to go home and go back to the airport early in the morning while I already waited patiently in the airport for more that 3 hours. When morning came I was excitedly arrive in the airport again only to be noticed that there is NO direct flight from Jakarta to the Netherlands and I have to go to Paris first and change flight AGAIN to KLM from Etihad. At that point I surrender everything to God and just follow along and agree to go to Paris first. Trouble arise again when I got in, the Etihad airplane is delayed AGAIN! For 2 hours I was seating alone in the terminal waiting for any information regarding the flight.. And finally the plane arrive and I am set to go to Abu Dhabi for a transit.

In Abu Dhabi, I have to wait for about 10+ hour, wandering alone and tired both physically and emotionally, finally my flight to Paris arrive and I already sit and when the plane took off I sleep.. In the middle of that flight the person next to me wake me up; at first I thought its because she feels annoyed with my snoring or something BUT turn out she wake me up because the Plane has fly back to Abu Dhabi due to some damage within the Plane machine and so she wake me up to tell me that its time to go down of the plane.. At that point I break down, while waiting in queue in the terminal I began to cry my eyes out and howling like crazy.. I feel like I’m not fated to go to the Netherlands etc etc etc… And a Woman who works for the Etihad airways feels pity towards me and she try to get me into the earliest flight to Amsterdam – Schiphol and she found one, but I have to wait in the Airport again for another 4 hour.. I was really tired and just thank her and go to the cafeteria to buy some time.. And after that I FINALLY on a plane to the Netherlands.. In total it took me 30+ hour and 2 days just to go to the Netherlands.

As soon as I arrive, I found another hurdle; my luggage is in Paris already, without me.. And at that point I was out of my mind and just accept everything with a heavy heart and promise myself to NEVER go anywhere with E***** airways again.. The journey I took just to come to this Country is really tiring both emotionally and physically.. And, everyone, that is just the beginning.. I will tell more in another post, for now, goodnight and wish me luck..

With Love,

Indira Musiawan

Friends I made during waiting time..

Friends I made during waiting time..

The sleeping capsule I use for sleeping (it was expensive but at least I have a place to sleep)

The sleeping capsule I use for sleeping (it was expensive but at least I have a place to sleep)

A good quotes I found while strolling around the airport..

A good quotes I found while strolling around the airport..

Beside Every Great Man, Stands A Woman With Vision

Dear Readers,

Have you ever notice that your choice of partner have a huge impact on what type of person you’ll become? I mean, what if Jay Z doesn’t have Beyonce by her side? On Upgrade U he ask Beyonce “How you gonna upgrade me? Whats higher than no.1?” and she replied “I can do for you what Martin did for the people, Ran by the men but the women keep the tempo, It’s very seldom that you’re blessed to find your equal, Still play my part and let you take the lead role, Believe me” it shows that she’s confident enough to tell him that he need her to help him build an Empire..  And its true, they are now equally both are the King and Queen of RnB-HipHop scene, famous all over the world, her shine is equal to his, they are partner in every way possible.. In my eyes there are 2 type of Woman, the Jackie and the Marilyn.. 

1) The Jackie

Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis, she’s the epitome of Classy, Sophisticated, Smart and definitely a force to be reckon with.. She’s the type every guy with ambition will marry, this type of Woman is not only smart but also beautiful, have a lineage of impressive family member, have control over her behavior, have standards, knowledgeable, know how to dress for an occasion, have goals, always strive to be better and definitely loyal.. This type of Woman open her books more often than her legs, she knows how to have fun without damaging her image, treat herself with respect and won’t take something for less than she deserve.. However, there’s a downfall of being this type of Woman, she doesn’t have much choice in term of the type of Man who go after her, she’s for most of the time is lonely, only have a few friends to hang with since she value loyalty so much, she may got the ring and all but most of the time she got cheated a lot too.. Because this type of Woman can be a bore, she’s so serious and absorbed in her aim that sometime she forgot how to be fun and alluring, that when the Marilyn type came along.. 

2) The Marilyn

Marilyn Monroe, no one can deny her sex appeal and alluring demeanor, she’s a fun to be with and know how to entertain others with her many talent and beauty.. This type of Woman is undoubtedly beautiful, always bring laughter to wherever she go, have many male fans, open her legs quite often or in short a “Cabe” girl material.. Its not like I’m saying that Marilyn is a “Cabe” material, its just that in my point of view it is like that.. Well she’s also JFK mistress anyway.. This type of Woman have diamond as her best friend, witty and smart but doesn’t take herself too seriously, and for most of the time is indeed DTF (Down To Fuck), doesn’t value herself much, on her mind fun is everything.. She is also quite easy to impress resulting in her easiness to get, usually got the guy but no ring whatsoever.. This type of Woman is okay by being a 2nd choice, the living in the moment kind of girl.. The great thing about being this type of girl is that she have many suitor, her live is usually much more colorful and fun the Jackie.. But this type is rarely got the ring and all.. 

So here’s an advice for you:

1) To my Female reader, those type does not reflect every type of Woman out there, my best friend is a Marilyn on the outside and Jackie on the inside, beside i too look like a Jackie but somewhere I believe I have a Marilyn part too.. This is just my very own perspective and stuff, does not mean any harm at all.. But you see, I heard it so many time stuff like “why am I being cheated on? Im educated and blablabla, he cheat on me with someone who is much more clueless, i know he ilke smart Woman but why?” Well girlfriend maybe the answer is he just want a Marilyn not a Jackie for the moment” or stuff like “Why am I always approached by someone who is already have a girl by his side? Why?” Well girlfriend this is maybe because he wants to play with a Marilyn before he settled with a Jackie, I mean most of the guy I met say its like that..  So, in short either you are a Marilyn or a Jackie there will always good-bad behind it, it is up to you what type of Woman you want to be.. The marrying kind (even though you will feel at most lonely) or the “Cabe” kind that have guys flooding to you like Jakarta flood on rainy season..

2) To my Male reader, please choose wisely, if you were aiming for a top position I suggest a Jackie type she will help you build an empire, but please refrain the Marilyn type temptation afterwards or else.. Leaving you will not be an option it will be a decision! If you still want to play around then don’t hold captive the Jackie type, let her be free and live her own life until you were ready, in the meantime there are plenty of Marilyn type to play along with.. And remember the type of person you choose to be by your side WILL determine what kind of person you’ll become, if you choose a religious Woman, u will be like that too, if you choose a party girl, you will end up hopping from one club to another, if u choose a drinker, smoker or a drug user, u will eventually do all of that too, unless you have a very strong will to not too.. That is why if you want to be successful choose a Woman with vision! I will guarantee your success in life..

With Love,

Indira Musiawan

Private Party

Dear readers,

Recently, I’ve been feeling lonely and its because all of my friends is continuing their journey in life with a speed I can’t keep up.. They all now have a life much more fruitful and busier than myself, many of them is getting even more serious with their significant other and since it’s nearing our University life the demand to be successful is higher too, that’s why many of my friends is venturing into the office world…

Amidst all of that I found myself stuck in this not-going-anywhere state, I am single with nothing significant to do, I have lost all the passion to be successful, I have no idea which path should I follow etc etc etc.. I neglect most of my studies material, I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore, I have an uncontrollable anger that I don’t even know where it comes from. I found myself alone even though I am not lonely, after striving for perfection all this year, I feel like I just gave up and stop doing anything…

I feel like I’am lagging far behind everyone else, I know deep down most of them love me unconditionally and if I just stretch my hands to them they will be by my side no matter what.. Nonethelessly, I still feel lonely even though I am not alone.. Then I found this song, I have been a huge fan of India Arie but this song hit me hard. When I first listen to this song I feel like renewing my point of view..

I hope this song can be your inspiration too, lets find joy inside of us because true love begin with yourself..
Celebrate Y O U 🙂

With Love,

Indira Musiawan

Suddenly It’s Magic

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I always thought I would be strong
If I made it through the pain
Well, I’ve been in and out of love
And it all hurts just the same

Love can really change your life
There’s something magic in my world tonight

I feel
So free
It’s like a fantasy
Having you next to me
Suddenly it’s Magic
One look
One touch,
Words just won’t say enough
When you fall in love,
Suddenly, suddenly it’s magic.

I’m not afraid of letting go,
I’ve got to find what’s right for me.
I’m not afraid to stand alone
If that’s the way it has to be
After all that I’ve been through,
There’s magic when I’m here with you

I feel
So free
It’s like a fantasy
Having you next to me
Suddenly it’s Magic
One look
One touch,
Words just won’t say enough
When you fall in love,
Suddenly, suddenly it’s magic.

We can dream our dream forever
When I’m here with you, baby
Heaven’s a heartbeat away.
Now that we’re together
Love could last forever
There’s magic in my life with you

I feel
So free
It’s like a fantasy
Having you next to me
Suddenly it’s Magic
One look
One touch,
Words just won’t say enough
When you fall in love,
Suddenly, suddenly it’s magic.

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2013 Life Lesson

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Dear Readers,

Let me just say Happy New Year to you, I hope this year will bring more and more joy, blessing etc for you. As always, I will write about things that I’ve been feeling since for me writing is a form of self liberation. I want to share to you the lessons I’ve gain from 2013, in hope to be of a help for you.. In 2013 I made a plentiful of new friends around the world, I visit places I wud never dream of visiting before, trying out new things and most importantly falling in and out of love again..

So, here goes what 2013 have taught me:

1) New people: In this life you will have an encounter with many different types of people the more varied they are, the more lesson you will gain. So be out there, open and just be friendly with everyone. Introduce yourself first, don’t be shy, he/she may be a blessing for your life..

2) I hit the big 20 in 2013 and will be 21 in 2014, time flies please do cherish every moment. Its precious.

3) Dignity; is when you have the ability to walk away from someone you’re quite attach to because he/she does not respect you nor treat you the way you should be treated even though you know how much you will suffer from it. Because he/she is just NOT worth it.

4) Before dating someone, it is highly appropriate for you to do a thorough background check! No, Im not talking about “who’s his/her family is?” or “how much money etc etc” NO! Im talking about his/her reputation.. Because you don’t want to go to a gathering (after you break up) and have 3 people whom you know are quite close to that person saying sorry to you since they know how big of a bastard he/she is really is right? It happened, and believe me it ruin your image of that person completely

5) Do NOT ignore the Red Flags no matter how much of that person is your type and since its quite rare to find it you blind yourself from seeing it, what’s the Red Flags Im talking about? Well here I give you some example:

  • If that person kiss you then kiss your friend passionately in front of you afterwards, it is inexcusable! It shows that person is indeed a player.
  • If that person have the ability to cheat, then leave his/her partner to be with someone else A.S.A.P it is more than likely that person will do the same with you.
  • If even that person close friend told you about his/her habit of playing with others then tossing them aside easily and warn you to not progress any further with that person, please with do all respect LISTEN and just move along. Since it is most likely to be true.
  • If that person still in good contact with most of his/her previous partner it can be a good thing, but if you caught a text that says “yeah I miss you badly too” from him/her, dude that’s a #RedFlag
  • If you’re introduced to that person by your friend and your friend says that “he/she is also just got out from a nasty relationship or he/she is constantly being hurt by others or etc etc” DO NOT date that person, because it is more than likely that person is still mopping and you’re just a plaything for him/her.
  • If while you were on a date with that person and he/she calls you by his/her previous lover name, baby that’s a #RedFlag.

6) If you were by any chance is involve in a huge project with new type of people that normally you wouldn’t hang out with. Be patient and flexible, just accept the reality that you cant pleased everyone, just do your job, even if they will talk bad behind your back, annoys you, does not respect you etc etc. Its okay, it can be a good lesson for you, since this world is filled with hateful and harsh people.

7) If a guy profess his love for you and ask you to be his bride, but he hasn’t lined up the who he is, the what he does, and the how much he makes in the way that he sees fit, he can’t possibly be to you what he wants to be. If you’re willing to wait then that’s good. The question is, does he have the same patience and understanding as you have? If not, move along!

8) “Ask any guy if sex is important in a relationship and the one who says no is lying. I just haven’t met that guy yet. When you meet him, let’s get him in to the Smithsonian – he’s that special and rare.”  ― Steve Harvey, Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man.

9) Education is important, and you can get knowledge EVERYWHERE!

10) If you’re different and knows that you are different then just indulge in your differences, don’t hesitate to be you. If you don’t like to smoke, don’t do drugs, don’t like to  party every night but your surroundings like it, you don’t have to be just like everybody else. Just do things that makes you comfortable, if you don’t like it then don’t do it. Its that simple.

11) Hobbies are meant to be explore and exploits, testing how far your ability is also important so then you know how capable you are as a person. I f your hobby can be cashed then by all means do it, the extra money will make yourself proud that you can make something for yourself.

Well then, I guess for now thats all I can think of, truthfully 2013 is a quite good year for me even thought there’s a lot of ups and downs but hey thats life right? When life gives you a lemon just make lemonade (or so they say), in short 2013 have been a year full of lesson that I am happy to apply in 2014. I hope this year will be the year that I can finally do many right things from the mistakes I’ve been making in the last couple of years, I hope this will also be the year that I’ll be kissing that magical frog who will turn into a Prince and most importantly I hope that even in this year my Family and Bestfriends will support me as always.

And I hope this year will also be a great year for you, thank you for reading this if you have anything you want to share please feel free to email me, its indira.musiawan@yahoo.com. 

With Love,

Indira Musiawan

The 3 – P nature

Dear Readers,

In my spare time aside from writing my other hobby is either cooking or reading. I really like to indulge myself in the company of a good book, especially a book that can enrich myself such as a self help book or a how-to book.. One of my favorite book is how to act like a lady and think like a man, this book is written by Steve Harvey.
I first read that book a long time ago and it has made quite an impression on me regarding how to be the Woman I wanted to be, that is the type of Woman a Man wants to keep or as Steve Harvey said; a keeper. I dont want to be a sport fish which is going to be taken from the sea only to be photographed then put back to the sea, I want to be the one who is worth it enough to be taken home, fried and eaten so then I’ll be safely guarded in his stomach..
That is if I want to put myself in a fish term, since according to Steve Harvey man sees dating is just like fishing.. He also say that the true nature of a man is that if he has that type of Woman (a keeper) he will Protect her, Provide to her and also Profess to her, this actions called the 3 – P! That is why if your man does not do any of it, are you sure he’s The right man for you? Well, this post will surely is to be continued because frankly I’m not so sure about my man either 😛

With Love,

Indira Musiawan

B I T C H

Bitch (noun):
A woman who won’t bang her head against the wall obsessing over someone else’s opinion – be it a man or anyone else in her life.
She understands that if someone does not approve of her, it’s just one person’s opinion; therefore, it’s of no real importance.
She doesn’t try to live up to anyone else’s standards – only her own.
Because of this, she relates to a man very differently.
  Sherry Argov